Loss of my life

I fell in love with this girl for a year or so now. It was love at first sight. I met her because we have the same organization. And by the time she was a member, I was the president of that said organization. I convinced her one time to join in our outreach program. And that thing made me like her. But we don't see each other so often. We just see each other once in a while. Though I already like her ever since I have met her but I didn't confess my feeling to her because I don't know much about her. I tried contacting her. I tried inviting her to some parties. I tried asking her to go out. But all those efforts didn't produce any fruits. Until she stopped contacting me for one semester already. By the next semester when the membership of our organization would start to ask new members and old members should renew their membership. At that time we met again.

The greatest time I had with her is during our school's founder's day celebration. We were together during the last day of the celebration because I asked her for it. I asked her if we could go out together that night because there is fireworks display. Fortunately, she did approve my request. And I am so happy for it. And I said to myself that this time of the year I would do my best in knowing her. We talked a lot during that night. And guess what, after that night, we haven't seen each other until the next semester.

Good thing that in the next semester we have the same dismissal time. So, every time our class ends, we made an agreement that we would see each other and go home together though we live in diffirent places. But, unfortunate to say, our time for each other is short lived. Like after two weeks or less of seeing each other, she started to get busy and I was left alone to go home. And that caused her habitual absences during our meeting time and place. I don't mind about that because she woud tell me beforehand through texting me in my cellphone why she couldn't be with me.

But one day, she texted me that she would not allow me to see her ever again. I asked for a reason for it. I asked whether I did something wrong or what not. But she just gave me no reason at all. For all this time that I wish for her, I lost her for no reason at all. I feel sad about it. If only she knew that I like her, would she do that to me? I really don't know. And right now, I feel I lost someone in my life.