Monday, December 29, 2008

Loveliest Moment in 2008





I made this blog before the end of 2008 so that I could remember this event when 2009 comes.

My loveliest moment in 2008 is of course, when I am with someone that I love and also like. Love and like are not similar in meaning. You could love someone but dislike him/her like my mom. I could like someone but not love him/her like my favorite actress Angelina Jolie.

The occasion is during the closing night of our founder's celebration. I asked her out that night. I said that we would watch the fireworks display that night. Luckily, she accepted my invitation. We went to dinner together but I ate dinner already before we met. The reason why ate dinner ahead of her is because I was not sure that I could go out with her tonight. I texted her that morning and she replied on the evening. With long hours of waiting, I thought that she can't go out. But, fortunately, my thoughts were wrong. We went to dinner and I still even ate dinner for the second time. Another reason that I ate dinner ahead of her so that I would not buy a lot of food. I eat a lot. So, to save money, I ate ahead and save up the money to treat her and order a little for myself. Fortunately too, she paid her own food. But, I kind of fell guilty at it so I decided to treat her later that night. We have a fun conversation that night. And, for the first time, I felt that the girl is comfortable in conversing with me. She, by the way, do all the talking while me, on the other hand, do the listening. And it is quite ironic on my part for I am a talkative fellow. I usually talk lots of things. But on this night, I was the listener and a good one too. She told me before we ate for dinner that she will be with her friends later that night to see the fireworks. And, I was expecting that by the time she will be with her friends, I would leave her already. So, I made the best out of our time together. We went to different stalls. We visited some displaying booths. We watched a wall-climbing contest. And then, I bought her an ice creme for she said that that is her favorite. And while eating our ice creme, we watched the fireworks display. And then, it is about time for her to go with her friends. I was about to say good bye to her but she asked me to join her with her friends too. So, happily, I joined them. She introduced me to everyone of her friends and I just forgot their names. We were together after the fireworks display for we watched a band in the stage. A band that students are playing the instruments and singing. When the celebration is over, we said our good byes.

And that is the loveliest moment in life. And for me, that was the best date ever in my life so far.

Craziest Moment in 2008






I made this blog before 2008 end so that I could still remember the things that happened in 2008.

My craziest moment in 2008 is when I went to party two day prior to our final examinations. My friend during that time want me to comfort her for she has a bad news. She wants to drink all night and get drunk. It is not only a bad news but a sad one also. Her dad has an affair with someone else. And that someone happened to be her classmate before at school. It is really depressing on her part. I am too got depressed about it for her. So, I accompanied her on that night. We invited some friends to come over too. We drank a lot. We drank tequila, vodka, beer and rhum. We got wasted that night. One of my friends has an examination by the following day, so he stayed up whole night. I even tutored him for his exam. Aside from being wasted that night, we also have examination the following day. After my exam, I got sick. So does my friends but I was the one who got sick far too long. I missed my other examinations. I only took around three examinations out of seven examinations. So, I have to get a medical certificate so that I could take a make up examination. It is really hard to look for a make up examination for the teachers are taking their vacation already. Good thing not all of them took a vacation. Some still stayed at school to check paper. But, I had this examination that I just took during enrollment week. I had also one make up exam that I took two weeks after enrollment. I mean, the classes had started already and yet I haven't take the make up exam yet.

It is quite crazy to my part. I just have not drink on that day. I should have explained to my friend that it is still final examination week and that we still need to prepare for the exams. And, I could have stayed with her but not overnight and got wasted. I should have control myself for it. In the end, I suffered the circumstances of my actions.

Saddest Moment in 2008






I made this blog before the end of 2008 so that whenever I look back to 2008, I could say that I had such a good year.

My saddest moment in 2008 is when I was eliminated in the student government election in our school. I was not sad because I lost. I was eliminated due to a person factor. My party mate wants to be the head or president in our party as well as wants to run as president for the next year in the student government. Unfortunate for her, a graduating president and I were the ones who made up the party and heading the party so we have a voice on the party. I was the running president for the party. She would be the vice-president. She kept on arguing to the graduating president about her side. She argued that she is a better leader than me. She has lots of friends to support her. But, I also argued. She may be better than me but on whose point of view? I have more experience than her in terms of leadership skills for I head lots of organizations in our school. I organized lots of school activities than her. I know the ways in the office. Essentially, I am way ahead of her yet. And yet, she insist that she is better than me in everything. I even said to her that she is so arrogant about her skill and she don't know how to stop her bickering. She kept on insisting about it and we have not yet able to make school platforms for our campaign.

I was so afraid of what might the other members of the party would think about our party, so I decided to give her the position she wanted and I am please already if I am her vice-president. The sad part is on the deadline of filing of Certificate of Candidacy, she replaced me with someone else. She changed the name of the party and telling me that I don't belong to the party anymore and I will go find another party to lead. I was shocked at that. I didn't expect her to do that. She was our Miss Silliman; a pageant in our school during founder's day celebration of our school. A pageant that would showcase the beauty and brains of the contestants as well as their morals. She also came from a Catholic school and a very pious one. But, she is a devil. A witch. In short, she is a person of no values and virtues. Buecause, after what she did, I started to question the values and virtues she have. Another sad part is that the other members of the party did not support me or even question her about her decisions. They even sided with her. They were even happy to oust me in their party.

I feel sad about it because those persons where the persons we, the graduating president and I, chose to be the leaders of our school. And yet, with the actions they have done, I feel sad on what kind of student government would it be once they take their positions. They may be the good ones for in my party, we don't pick the incompetent ones. But we are deceived by them. They are cruel people. People who don't have values and virtues. They just go where the are secured. In short, they were insecure. They won't do anything unless their position and reputation will be in jeopardy. I feel sad about it for it is like a dooms year for the school. Many voters are totally against it but I could not do anything about it.


Happiest Moment in 2008





I made this blog before the end of 2008 so that whenever I would like to see my life in 2008, then I could say that I had a good year this year. So, to start it off, I want to share to you my happiest moment in 2008.

My happiest moment in 2008 happened on my birthday. We, my family, don't have a party on my birthday. Mom just bought me a cake and then we just ate dinner together as a family. That's it. No fabulous food on breakfast and lunch. But what made me happy during that day is that many remembered my birthday namely my friends. They greeted me on my phone. They were looking for me in school which by the way I didn't go tot school on that day on the reason taht it is my birthday. They were commenting on my friendster. That's what made me happy. It was super pleasing feeling. I felt that I made a difference on the lives of my friends. That's what I was looking for in my life. I hope by the next year, many would still remember my birthday and thank me for being here on earth. And my birthday means so much to that.

Another thing that made me happy on my birthday is that my parents weren't piss on me. Usually before, they would get mad at me because I want a party on my birthday. A party where my friends are there to eat and hang out. But this year, no party and no friendst at home. Not even a single close friend. So, I felt good about it for my parents don't have hard feelings on me.

Lastly, it is on this birthday that I gave a present to myself. My present to myself is to watch the Bleach movie 2, the Diamond dust Rebellion. It was a great anime movie. And I was so happy about it. Bleach is also one of my favorite anime. And that movie is the movie that I was craving for for a year already. Good thing I was able to watched it already. A big relief on my part.

So, that is the moment where I am so happy. No hard feelings with my loved one. Being remembered and cherished by friends for the love I gave to them. And the anime I love and craving to watch.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

My Favorite Author





David Baldacci. Anyone who know him? He is my favorite author. I really like the way he write his novel. His novel is a thriller/fiction type. It is all thanks to my friend for letting me read one of David Baldacci's books and then I become addicted to his books that I borrowed books of him to my friend.

The books that David Baldacci wrote:
Absolute Power
Total Control
The Winner
The Simple Truth
Saving Faith
Wish You Well
Last Man Standing
The Christmas Train
Split Second
Hour Game
The Camel Club
The Collectos
Simple Genius
Stone Cold
The Whole Truth
Divine Justice (recently published)

Though I haven't read all of the books of Baldacci. But one of my favorite book is Stone Cold. It is a book that continues the story of The Camel Club, The Collectors and then Stone Cold. There is a new book that continues the story which is recently publish by Baldacci. It is Divine Justice. The reason why I like Stone Cold is that it is the book that I could not stop read it.

anime experience 5.08






"it is his quick thinking and self-confidence that makes him continue even though if he fails"

This is what Kakashi said when he saw Naruto defeated Kakuzu. And right now, I am going to be a new person thanks to Naruto. Aside from quick thinking and self-confidence, I will also be determined and interested.

So, what am I into? Actually, since I am a student and I have many failure in my classes I have this problem that whether or not I am able to graduate. And right now, as my new year's resolution, I would change myself for good. I will be determined and interested on my studies. I will bear in mind that my goal is to graduate on my first course. And second, if ever I fail or become unsuccessful, I must think quick and won't lose confidence on my self. I would right away continue what I had started and finish it. With this traits on me, I would say nothing could even make me unsuccessful. With this on mind, I could be the smartest person. A smartest person of all men, even when I lost, I actually won. So even if I failed, I still am successful.

This is what I got when I watched the anime battle between Naruto and Kakuzu. Kakashi was so happy that Naruto defeated single-handedly Kakuzu. And that is because of Naruto's self-confidence and quick thinking. But, to add up, on my part, I will have self-confidenc and quick thinking just like Naruto plus determined and interested.

Our Dilemma





In our house we have this predicament between my elder and I. My elder sister has a dilemma on what second-course she would take. She just found out that the profession she is in to is not the profession she wants. She wants to take another course but this time, the second course would still be in relation on her first course. And until now, she has no clear choice yet but she has tons of ideas on her mind. On the other hand, I have also a predicament on my own. Fortunate for me because I am still studying but the problem is I have failed on my first course. I am taking double majors by the way. So, I have this dilemma on whether to continue on my first course or shift to another course.

That is the dilemma between my elder sister and I. So, what we did are we took a career path tests on the net. I think around three of those kinds. And we would see the result of the test. Once we know the result of the test, we would assess it with our current life. We also consult some horoscope and chinese zodiacs to see whether we have the right course we chose. I know it is silly to consult on zodiac signs but we didn't take them seriously. We just looked our traits and abilities on our respective zodiac signs. And lastly, we searched on the net on the top 20 highest paying jobs. That would motivate us to do good on the course we chose for we expect that it is a highest paying job as well as it is very competitive for many would also pick that course or career.

In the end, until now, our dilemma isn't solved yet for we are not so sure we could do what we think we want for we have to take into considerations the resources we have and the capabilities we have as of the moment. We, in short, are just dreaming a big dream. And we lost focus on what really matter most. Well, aiming high is not a wrong thing too. And it's free to hope for something, isn't it?

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Looking for fun (part 2)





Read a book. That's next on the list of fun. Well, reading a book is fun especially if its your favorite book or a book of the same genre. It is also not that expensive for me because I would just borrow books from my friend. Unfortunately, I am done reading the books I borrowed and right now I have something to read but I don't like it. So, I still have to borrow again a book. Unfortunately, since it is vacation time, my friend is not here so I still have to wait until vacation is over. Lets just hope that my friend would come back home earlier so that I could borrow a book from him.

Improve my Magic the gathering white deck. I am an avid fan of Magic the gathering trading card game. And thanks to my friends for teaching and introducing this game to me. Unfortunately, of the three fun things I listed, this is the most expensive of them all. A deck is worth 500php. A booster pack is 150php for 15 pieces of cards. And for me, I just played the game for my friends are playing it. It is like a peer pressure my part but not so much. Anyway, we are not into joining tournaments so I could make proxy cards; a card that is not original, sometimes being copied and printed in the computer. I could just form a deck and then print a card that I needed and just play the game with my friends. It is alright for them for me to do that anyway. The problem is I don't know how to form or modify the deck. And right now, my friends are modifying their respective decks. They change what needs to be changed. They eliminate what needs to be eliminated. They add what needs to be added. And right now they are doing it. So, I hope I have an idea on my mind on what I would do to my deck. I will just research on www.essentialmagic.com which is the ultimate source of us all.

Looking for fun (part 1)







I am in my state of mind wherein I am looking for fun. Fun, as in wholesome fun. Not the nasty ones, if you know what I mean. So, on the top of my idea is a massive multiplayer online role playing game (MMORPG), read a book, or improve my Magic the gathering white deck. And right now, I am still don't know what to do with it.

First, about the MMORPG, I have something on my mind. I know what I want to play but I am not so sure whether I would continue playing that game. The game I choose is the Grand Chase. You just search this on the net about the game for I really don't know much about the game. I just saw its poster on it on the internet cafe wherein I am a regular player in there. And a korean friend of mine told me that he had played that game before when he was still in Korea. And since he's here in the Philippines already and studying in Silliman University, he had not played it already. And for me, the game is OK but not sure if it is the best. Another game that is on my mind/list is Lineage. A friend of mine wants me to play his character which is already level 50. I asked some of my friends about the game and they said that why don't I give it a try. But, if I were to chose, I would chose Lineage over Grand Chase but the problem is financial. Lineage is not a free to play game. You still have to buy a card worth 20php. That is enough for 7 days. On the other hand, Grand Chase is a free to play game. All you need to spend is the rental of the computer. I just want a game that is fun as well as not expensive. I don't have enough allowance to have games that are expensive.

Christmas Eve





On Christmas Eve, my sisters and I were the ones at home. It is, I think our first time that we had spent Christmas between the three of us. Mom was not with us because she still have work to do. And dad was not also there with us because he went back to where my grandma lives. Unfortunately, we didn't go with him so we end up being with mom. My sisters and I weren't that close as a siblings. We don't know much about each other. And, lets just say, that most of the time we don't care much for each other. But, nevertheless, we are still siblings and we have nothing to do about it. It is also one of the Christmas Eve where I didn't go home late. Usually, I would be back at our house on the eve of Christmas. It is because I usually hang out a lot with friends rather with my family. This is because I found it quite hard to talk or hang out with my family because we have nothing much in common. But this time of the year, I was home roughly 7 o'clock, just enough for dinner.

We don't have fabulous food on Christmas eve. We had ham and mango cake. We, of course, have lots of junk foods. In short, we don't have quite a celebration on Christmas eve. What we did is we watched the movie Transporter 3 while waiting Christmas eve. And since we finished the movie before Christmas eve, we watch Naruto and Bleach. After watching those videos, it is now time for noche buena. So, we ate mango cake and drink vodka royal and red wine also. After which, we all went to sleep. I was the one who slept late because I was doing yahoo messager (YM) with my friends.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

What do you want for Christmas?




What do you want for Christmas? This is usually what I ask my friends if ever they ask for gifts to me for Christmas. And, if you were the person who wants gifts for Christmas, you would tell things you want like lawn tennis racket, frisbee disk, stuff toys, etc. And then I ask them don't you want peace on earth? And then, that person would say yes, I do want peace on earth. And then I ask them again like why didn't you ask for that in the first place. And that person would say that he/she was thinking about whether I would give them gifts for them so that is why they list down what they want expecting I would purchase them for them. And then I said that I would give gifts to person who would tell me first that he wants peace on earth after my question of what do you want for christmas. And this is one way of evading the possibility of giving gifts on Christmas.

Bad experiences on a three-syllable family name girls






"Since you said No to me, I hope you won't forget me after it. I could not argue more to you for I don't know what words to say. I am just staring at you as you leave for I don't know how to say, 'Don't leave me.' "

That statement is on my mind every time a girl, whom I liked and confessed my feeling with, would say no to me.

"You are nice and sweet guy, I am thankful for that, but you will just always be my friend. Nothing more."

That statement is always the concept whenever the say no to me. I didn't care to ask for the reason of why no. And I know that it is stupid not to ask. But for me, I don't care anymore.

But, something ironic with this. For all my past experiences, this things happened to girls that has three-syllable family name. And granted that I know about it, I just got the same experience recently with, of course, three-syllable family name. That may be a warning for me but those girls, to me, with three-syllable family name are so irresistible. Even if I know beforehand about their family names, I don't care much about it. I mean, it is stupid to base your love with the syllable of the family name of the girl.

I also tried to precaution myself before with three-syllable family name girl. I have experienced too that a three-syllable family name girl liked me, but I turned her down for I was afraid that it would turn out bad but it was a waste for we turn out to be super good friends but we couldn't go further for she have boyfriend already. And that happened twice already.

bad experiences: tabada, ochoco, mariano, oropel, mijares, san pedro, lasola, seriño,

Love emotions



Love is a sweet pain. You will feel sweetness of love at the start of love. Or when love comes on your way. It is like love has a first impression of being sweet, caring, loving, understanding, kind and some other good feelings. But when love stays long in your life, it would start to show its true color, and that is being painful. It would hurt you. Love is a sadist. Love is pain where you sacrifice so many but love would say it is not enough. Love is unforgiving. Love will take advantage of the situation. No mercy would be love's motto. Love is a wanting but hard to accept.

Nevertheless, even if people knows this fact, many would still go for love for love conquers all. Love may hurt you at times but the hurt would be nothing compare to the love that is given. Love, once given sincerely, is the greatest thing on earth. Love is like a crack where you could not stop searching for it. The more you take it, the more you want it. And the more you take that love, the satisfaction you get gets increasing. Love will not diminish its value for love is invaluable.

Share your love to everybody for love is the only thing that is true. It is love that saves us from sins or death, according to Christianity. Love fully but not folly.

Searching K.A.U.





One day, I saw this cute young girl in one of the malls in our small town. Actually, it is not the first time that I saw her but this time when I saw her, I had this urge to know her, you know what I mean? So, I started texting my friends if ever they know this girl. It is really hard to search for the name of the girl because I really don't know how to describe her to my friends. I mean we both have nothing in common that would describe her so that my friends would know whether they know who I am mentioning to them. I just couldn't describe how she looks like because that would not work. I just said to them that she always hang out in internet cafes. That's the only thing I could tell them. And for me, that would be the lead for my search.

So, since I met her awhile back later that day again, so I decided to go to her and talk to her. And find a way to know her name and ask for her contact number. I was able to talk to her but I wasn't able to ask for her contact number because her dad came up to fetch her. I feel sad about it. I am so close in attaining my goal. So, I search so hard for her. I even said to my self that I would stop searching until I know her name. I won't also sleep unless I know her name. Luckily, by 12 A.M. I know her name already. She is Kathryn Anne Uy a.k.a. katccy but I aliased her to KAU.

So, what do I get from this endeavor? I realized that I could do things as long as I am determined to finished it and interested on it. And I think those traits are not present in my life in terms of my course. Imagine that I fail three time in my course, I didn't shift yet because I sort of like it as I keep telling my self. And if I really like my course, then I should be determined to finish it this year and be interested on it more. That would be my new year's resolution.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

anime experience 4.08





"Who are you as a anime character in reality?"

Well, I may sound biased to you but for me, I am Naruto in reality. I may have not the looks and the skills for it because it is an anime but I do have the personality like Naruto. I may sound biased because first and foremost, I love Naruto so much. Naruto is my favorite anime. And second, though this may be stupid to you, but if ever I have decisions to make, I always ask myself, what would Naruto in this situation? So, there you have it.

I am Naruto because one thing Naruto and I that is similar is we both don't give up. That's it. That's how simple it is. I usually don't give up so easily. I have to test all the possibilities until I have no possibilities left. I may also don't think so much or I am not a brilliant kid unlike my friends and classmates. I may be a failure to some for almost all the things I do screwed up and don't turn out right. But despite that fact, many people still believed in my talents and skills just like Naruto. I have also a big dream like I want to be the ultimate answer to the economic crisis where are in. Naruto do has a big dream and that is to be the Hokage.

Naruto is me in reality for I don't give up just like him for our dream. We keep on moving forward until we see that there isn't anymore a way to forward to. Naruto may be a love-sucker but who cares? Many still love him as a friend.

anime experience 3.08




"What experience do you want to happen in your life that had happened in anime?"

To answer that question, I would say that I want to experienced what Luffy in One Piece experienced during the time when the Strawhats Pirates are in Thrillebark. It was the time when Luffy already defeated Oz and the leader pirate of Thrillerbark, Gecko Moria. This is when another Shichibukai, Bartholomew Kuma appeared. It was when Roronoah Zoro asked Bartholomew Kuma to stop the hardship Luffy experienced or kill Luffy. He argued that Luffy had suffered enough with Gecko Moria. And it is the time when Bartholomew Kuma asked Roronoah Zoro that he would not attacked the Strawhat Pirates given that Roronoah Zoro would accept to suffer what Luffy had suffered. He sucked the pain and hardship of Luffy using his power. It looked like a bubble of paw. Whenever Roronoah Zoro touched it, he would feel the pain that Luffy had suffered. And Roronoah Zoro accepted the offer and he almost died because of it.

That is what I want to experienced right now. Right now, I have a terrible pain inside my body or soul. I don't want to tell someone about it especially my parents and also I feel that it is a problem personally for me. I am not confident to let it out yet so far. And I want someone to sacrifice for me to save me the trouble I am in right now. But right now, there isn't someone who could help, that's far as I know. I also beleived that my friends and loved ones have their problems on there own. And no time for my personal problem. If only I could experienced what Luffy experienced. If only I had a Roronoah Zoro on my life where he could be willing to lay down his life for the burden I am feeling.

So, I just need a super dear friend that could spare me the burden I have right now in my life.

Loss of my life





I fell in love with this girl for a year or so now. It was love at first sight. I met her because we have the same organization. And by the time she was a member, I was the president of that said organization. I convinced her one time to join in our outreach program. And that thing made me like her. But we don't see each other so often. We just see each other once in a while. Though I already like her ever since I have met her but I didn't confess my feeling to her because I don't know much about her. I tried contacting her. I tried inviting her to some parties. I tried asking her to go out. But all those efforts didn't produce any fruits. Until she stopped contacting me for one semester already. By the next semester when the membership of our organization would start to ask new members and old members should renew their membership. At that time we met again.

The greatest time I had with her is during our school's founder's day celebration. We were together during the last day of the celebration because I asked her for it. I asked her if we could go out together that night because there is fireworks display. Fortunately, she did approve my request. And I am so happy for it. And I said to myself that this time of the year I would do my best in knowing her. We talked a lot during that night. And guess what, after that night, we haven't seen each other until the next semester.

Good thing that in the next semester we have the same dismissal time. So, every time our class ends, we made an agreement that we would see each other and go home together though we live in diffirent places. But, unfortunate to say, our time for each other is short lived. Like after two weeks or less of seeing each other, she started to get busy and I was left alone to go home. And that caused her habitual absences during our meeting time and place. I don't mind about that because she woud tell me beforehand through texting me in my cellphone why she couldn't be with me.

But one day, she texted me that she would not allow me to see her ever again. I asked for a reason for it. I asked whether I did something wrong or what not. But she just gave me no reason at all. For all this time that I wish for her, I lost her for no reason at all. I feel sad about it. If only she knew that I like her, would she do that to me? I really don't know. And right now, I feel I lost someone in my life.

I am missing someone






This is my first time missing someone so greatly. She is always in my dreams. I keep on thinking about her. Unfortunately, it's vacation time so we couldn't see each other for two weeks. And we had a bad "good bye".. Anyway, usually, I don't miss anyone before she came into my life. I understand that she has to leave our town and go back to her hometown to celebrate Christmas there with her family. So, it can't be helped. And, usually, before she came into my life, I would say good bye to my friends for a long vacation ahead but I don't get to miss them. We would spend our last day or night together doing things we love to do like playing computer games, hanging out, partying, etc. She's nothing different from what I did to my friends. I spend together with her during her last night here in our town. But, after two days have passed, I still can't take the fact that she's not her with me though she will be back after two weeks. But two weeks is such a long time to wait for her. In short I missed her so much.

I really don't know what she did to me. All we did together is we spent so much time together for the past two weeks. We keep seeing each other day and night. And I would say it started when I saw her in a bar with her friends. My friends and I were in the next table with them. I greeted one of her friend there first than her because I befriended that friend of her before her. Then I said hi to her afterwards. We were classmates in one of my class as well as groupmate for the report of that said class. The first question I asked to her is her name and I followed it up by asking for her number. I did that so that I could contact her with regards to our report by next week. And then she texted me saying "classmate," And then it started in there our communication. I keep on asking her to go out by the next two days but the effort were unsuccessful. And then when class started again, that's when we started our report, we were the two reporters for the group. And that event even strengthen our friendship if I were to say. And then we do constant communication. She plans to join a club in school wherein she asked me to join too. And I said yes to her invitation. I didn't make it in the first test but she did pass the first test and continue the second test. I helped her in the second and third test but sad to say, she didn't make it too. After that, we didn't see each other for a day. And when we meet again, she treated me to lunch. As the days passed with her with me, until there came a time that I confessed to her what I felt for her.

After my confession, each of us feel awkwardness with each other. But we still see each other day and night. And the day when she is about to leave, I spent the whole time with her. And when she left, I didn't get the chance to say good bye personally. And I felt sad about it. So angry too because she didn't give me the chance to say it personal. And now that she is not here anymore, I am deeply feel an emptiness in my self. I am missing her so greatly.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Our Call of Duty 4 Challenge

"Our judgement day is today at 5PM. Our enemies are immortals. We may be able to kill them but they will respawn back to life. Bullets won't kill them but score. Don't be afraid for we are Spartans!"

This is what I told to my teammates during our Call of Duty 4 challenge. This is our battecry. And we are Spartans for we are all boys. And our enemies are all girls and their name is Bulldogs. The judgement day means the day where we will play Call of Duty 4. Our enemies are immortals for they will respawn back to life after they are killed. And if you happens to play Call of Duty 4, this is true. If you get killed, you get to be respawned again. It is a computer game wherein it is a first-person game. You kill an opponent. You are a soldier in here. Once you kill an opponent, you will gain points. And as you accumulate points, you would increase youe experience points and then you would improve your rank. The game is so simple. It is fun.

Now, why did we lose? I wouldn't say we are no-gooder on the game. That may be partly true. But I know how to play the game because I used to play Counterstrike Source and Half-life before. The thing is the game is somewhat the same but not totally the same. There are still controls that I am not aware of. The target site is so different with Counterstrike Source. The places are different. The graphics are also different. But, even if it is different, we managed to give a fun game to girl challengers. In short, we are still not pro in the game.

On the otherhand, the challengers as well as the winners as so great. They have played the game for quite some time and they have, shall we say, mastered the game strategies. Very unfortunate for us for we have first-timers and second-timers of the game.

But the point is, we are not into winning the game, instead enjoying the game. I happened to be the noisiest in the group. Whenever I killed someone, I shouted her name aloud and would say, YOU ARE NO GOOD TO ME!! And when I got killed, I shouted OMG I GOT KILLED.

Even though we lose in the game, we are victorious in our heart. We are champions in our own right. A champion is when he is magnanimous in victory and accept defeat with grace.

We are planning to have a rematch or Call of Duty 4 (2) challenge. That would be next year for the players are going home in their hometown for Christmas.

Personal Saying 3.08

"Success or failure is the product of either cowardice or stupidity."

I am deeply hit by the statement before you. So far, I am in the failure mode. I have so many unsuccessful things than successful ones in my life. And, if you ask why is that so, my answer would be I am too brave but not too smart enough. It doesn't mean that if you are too brave but not too smart, you are unsuccessful. You could be successful with that endeavor also. You could be unsuccessful when you are too smart yet not too brave enough as well as be successful.

So, what am I pointing out in here? It's simple. There is a fine line between cowardice and stupidity. That's it. Nothing to argue about.

Many would disagree with my statement. They would say that intelligence is not the only way to be successful. You could have determination, diligence, commitment and all those stuffs. But, for me, you may disagree or not, those stuffs mentioned fall into the category of being smart. I mean, it is being smart to be determined in the things you do so that you could be successful. If you are not determined, then you are stupid because you would just keep on dreaming the things you want to do yet you won't do it. So, that's it, anything that involves practical and critical thinking is being smart. It is otherwise known as the thinking process.

On the otherhand, bravery is another thing. Let us just say that you are in a cliff or a corner of a building. Across you is another platform where you could step on. You could just jump toward the next platform or turn around and look for another way. But the point is you have to go to the platform across you because there is danger in the current platform you are in. You are not sure if you could make it to the platform across if you jump towards it. You might fall and die. Being afraid to jump is a form of cowardice. But jumping towards the platform without thinking or making sure of the situation is stupidity. So, its up to the person.

What I am telling you right now is cowardice and stupidity has a fine line of differences. You could be the other one but not the other one. You could be coward but stupid. You could be stupid but coward.

Right now, I am in the stupidity mode of failure. I am too brave. I am brave in the sense that I am not afraid anymore of making a mistake. I am not afraid again to fail. I could endure any criticism that is bestow upon me. I could take all the regrets and misery that had happened in my life. I am so strong to be tample down by anyone or anything. But I am stupid for I let myself suffer the things all over again. I just don't know when could be the end of my limitations to endure pain. So, that's why, I changed myself, I must lean toward the cowardice side and be smart.

Nevermind this

I just feel so sad today because I was told by my friend that I am a corrupt being. I am corrupt, meaning I would use my power for my own benefits personally. I totally opposed to that. And besides, according to her, it's natural for a corrupt person to opposed the allegations that he is corrupt. That's ironic isn't it? She said, I would use my friends in position to do me the favor I want. I could just fabricate things and then have it approve by my friend. I could produce anything and then someone, my friend, with the power to sign it would sign it. For instance, if I got sick, assuming I do or not, I could get a medical certificate and have it sign with a friend, of course, a registered doctor, and then present it to the teacher, for instance. That is how she tried to tell me. And she even asked me to stop what I am doing. I would really like to argue on her allegations

First argument, I am not in a position of power. I may able to influence the person or friend but I am not in a position of power, so I am not corrupt. The argumentation is just simple, corrupt people are in power who uses their power for their personal benefits. For instance, a mayor of authority would rape a young girl and won't face any litigation on it because he just told the regional court not to proceed the litigation. Then that is corrupt. Another example is when a governor steals money from the people's money, otherwise known as tax. That is corrupt. There is this saying that goes, with absolute power corrupts absolutely. So, to further prove my point, corrupt comes with power.

Second argument, so what if I could ask someone to do something for me. He/she may be returning the favor to me for the goodness I had rendered to him/her. But that is not corrupt. I may be able to produce the necessary papers with ease rather than anyone else. That is not corrupt. But some people would say, it is still a corrupt act because you use your influence on them for your personal benefits. I would like to question the idea of influence and personal benefits. First, what is influence? Influence is the capacity or power of persons or things to be a compelling force on or produce effects on the actions, behavior, opinions, etc., of others. And they say, the word power is still there. And if you try to go back to my first argument wherein corrupt comes with power, then there you have it in the definition. Proves the point isn't it. But, that's not true. For instance, big business may able to influence the public to buy their products by massive advertisements but that is not corrupt. A friend may influence a friend to do things but that't not necessarily corrupt. Second, the idea of personal interest. I would ask a question, how personal is personal interest? Is it when only one person is involved? Or is it when two or more person is involve? I would like to clarify that even if you opt for a personal benefits, the benefits you get benefits society as a whole also. According to Adam Smith, the aggregate personal interests of the society benefits so much to the society. Like, a baker may bake bread because that is personally beneficial to him. He could earn profits out of it. But, the society benefits from it. The society or community could eat bread. That is personal interest. So, going back to the second argument, I am not necessarily a corrupt being. I may be influencial to some few individuals but my actions doesn't impose a major threat to society.

So sum it all up, corrupt come with power. And that is when power is used personally for the person given with the power. If a person without power could influence someone, he is not corrupt. But if a person with power and influenced someone to do his personal things to him/her, then that is corrupt.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Personal Saying 2.08

"Stand up on your own. Education is your shoes. Determination is your socks."

This is the saying I made up after listening to my economic development teacher discussing about uplifting one's self. Actually, the teacher said that we should be self-sufficient. We should be able to stand up on our own. And, according to him and I also agree, the only way to be able to stand on our own is through education. Humans should be educated. Humans should invest on their capital and that is human capital. And education is the one way of enhancing the human capital. So, if you need to "stand" on your own, you could do it with your feet. But standing on your feet alone would imply that you are not ready for sharp stones, hard ground, etc. And shoeless feet is like the person is primitive and we could also say ignorant. So, in order to show that we are educated, a shoe would symbolize that. Once you stand up with a shoe, you are not anymore afraid of the sharp stones, hard grounds, etc for you are protected already as well as prepared. The sharp stones, hard grounds, etc are examples of our life's trials and challenges. And of course, the teacher has an addition to what he just said. He even said that education is not enough in order to stand on our own. Although you could do so with a shoe or shoes but it is not comfortable for our feet to wear shoes only. That's why we need socks to protect our feet from the hazards brought by the shoes. Same goes with education. Although we could stand when we are educated but it is not enough to let us stand firm. We need determination in ourselves. Imagine that education is reachable already to almost everyone in the world but only a few are determined to be educated. They may be in school but they used inappropriately the purpose of the school. They do sex in school or scandal. Have gangs in schools. And other bad things in school. And not just that, they may be in the classroom but they didn't learn anything so much about the lesson because the rely on the seatmate's ideas, answers and opinions. In other words, this people may have shoes in their feet but the are not comfortable with it because the socks is not wore.

So be educated and made the most out of it. Stand on your own with your shoes and socks on.

Personal Saying 1.08

"I believe in choice and time rather than forever and eternity."

That is what I believe right now. I don't believe in forever and/or eternity. For me, they sound so unreal. And also, they sound idealistic. But when I say choice and time, it just mean that you could have forever if you want to, depending upon the time you have in your life.

Well, I think the quote/saying already implies what it means already, so I don't need to expound the definition of the quote/saying. What I will be doing is to give my life experience about the statement so that I could to prove the statement I quoted/said.

First part, I would like to emphasize the career I have now. I would like to answer two questions for this blog which is pertaining to my career. First, why would I choose my career as an example to the statement. Second, how could I use my career to prove the statement.

On the first question, why would I choose my career to give credit to the statement? First of all, we, as human beings, made decisions in our lives. And that decisions involve two things, namely, choice and time. Remember that you couldn't go without the other. When you choose something, you used up time on it like the thinking process. The longer for you to decide, the longer the time is used before a choice is made. It is just like in our legislative system where they used up a lot of time debating in order to come up with a proposition to the problem as well as solution. The same goes with our career. We think over and over on what career to go through. And that thinking process involves time and choice- later on. Second, I choose career, it may not specifically my career but any career, because any individual could understand fully what I will be talking about. If I choose other example such as finance and economics, many finance and economics jargons will be introduced along the way in my discussion, thus leading to confusion to the reader. So, basically, that's it. For easy understanding my blog.

So, lets go to the juice in this blog, how could I use my career as an example to prove the statement. I don't need to tell you all the details about my career. I would just like to say and share that it took me more than four years to finish my career. And right now, I am not sure how long exactly would it took me to finish it. This is an example of forever and/or eternity in the contextualization of choice and time. This may sound negative to me but I don't care as long as I made my message across to the reader. Right now, I could say that it took me like forever to finish my course. The longer I am able to finish it, the difficulty, hardship, and disgrace seems an eternity. They become realistic in my life. And this is because of the choice I made. Lets just say that I didn't want this to happened but because I made wrong choices, this had happened. Which is by the way the same thing. I may say that this is an unwanted event to happened but even if it is unwanted, the fact is, you've chosen things that would result into this thing. Choices like not studying for the examination but go playing games. Instead of going into class, you become absent and spend time chatting with friends. The examples I have just given are examples of choices. And as I have mentioned earlier, the choice you made involves time. Time for thinking process and time to implement the choice. Because of choices, time will tell its part of the story.

So, if you or I ask myself, did I believe in the statement. I would say yes for the statement proves so much to my life especially what I have done to myself. I hope you too believe that forever and eternity is nothing without choice and time. Believe in time and choice for they are the basic foundation to the idea of eternity and forever.

Monday, December 15, 2008

anime experience 2.08

"What is your funny experience with anime?" I liked to answer that question for my second issue in anime experience. First off, every time you experienced something you have to make sure that you learned from it unless it wouldn't be an experience at all. Well, that's according to my point of view. Anyways, to start it off right away, there's this one time that my friend and I were arguing about where would the sound travel faster. Is it in solid, my friend's argument, or in liquid like water, my argument. By the sound of it, my friend wins already. But he hasn't have much evidence to prove it that time that is why we still kept on arguing about it. And it hasn't been resolved until the next day. Well, if you are not that much into science, you wouldn't be able to solve it right then and there, wouldn't you? So, later at that night we make a gamble. We bet 400php for who is right. Whoever is right gets the money. :) Well, perhaps you know already who won but before that I would like to put some background first.
Well, on my side, i said that sound travel faster in water than in any solid material because I just saw it in Naruto where Chouji was fighting a sound ninja. The sound ninja uses techniques that are from sound. He uses sound to kill someone. But this sound ninja uses the sound wave to paralyze the enemy and once he paralyzed the enemy already, that's the time he would kill him. Well, Chouji didn't die if you would ask because at the time he was paralyzed, the fight is stopped already to prevent unnecessary killings. They also declared that Chouji loses. Moving on, Chouji met up with this sound ninja guy before but with his team, unlike what I am trying to say. I am saying that Chouji's fighting the sound ninja in a one-on-one combat. Chouji has a problem in how to defeat the ninja, because once you hear his sound technique, you would get paralyzed. So, what he did was he uses his known technique which makes his body into a big ball so that in that way he couldn't hear a sound since he would hide his head, forearms and legs into his body in order to be a ball. And then, all he could do is just roll and roll and eventually crush the enemy. Unfortunately, as I've mentioned, he is still defeated since sound can still travel on water. Since majority of our human body is made up of water, sound could still travel to it. So, what the sound ninja did is he struck Chouji and then used his sound technique. So, Chouji is paralyzed and was defeated.
Going back to the topic, I still bet on my argument because I know I got it from there. Unfortunately, I am wrong. I lost in our gamble. It is not that anime tells wrong facts or ideas, it's just that I didn't understand the question. The question was where does sound travel faster, is it in liquid or solid. But the anime was right that sound travel in water but not that fast if it travels in solid. So, to cut the long story short, I owe my friend 400 bucks and until now I haven't paid it to him. I do have lots of funny experiences with anime but so far this is the one that I could confidently tell to you guys. :)

anime experience 1.08

I am starting a blog and this is about my life's experiences. Well, the experiences should also be what I learned from anime/manga. :) You might not know that I am so addicted with anime's and manga that they become my daily dosage in my life. :) Many people would say that animes and mangas are for kids but I don't mind that. It is fun to be a child in your own self. :) Anime and manga is another kind of literature. It is just like any story we read in a novel, short stories, epic and so on but the difference is it has a lot of pictures, for manga, and motion pictures, for animes. The anime and manga that I liked so much is Naruto, Bleach and One Piece. I am done watching all their videos and manga series. Right now I am constantly waiting for their new episode. :) So interesting isn't it? I would like to suggest to you that to read and watch Naruto, Bleach and One Piece as well. :)
To start off with a new blog, my first topic would be, What power, skill, or technique in any anime/manga character do you want to have? Well, there are so many power, skills or techniques to mention in anime/manga. But I just want to choose the technique of Naruto which is Mass Shadow Replication Technique otherwise known as Kagebunshin no jutsu. :) It is just a very simple technique. I didn't choose the powerful skills or technique because I done want to be burden by responsibility. As they say, with great power comes great responsibility. So what is so interesting in a Kagebunshin no jutsu which makes me want it? Well, kagebunshin no jutsu allow to replicate yoursellf, meaning you could be two or more person in an area, time and situation. And then,the part that I want the most, it allows you to experience the things that your shadow experience, meaning if you replicate two shadows, which makes you three, because that would include yourself plus two shadow self. And if you read for instance different book for each of your shadow and yourself, then when you unreplicate them, what they learned will automatically what you learned as well. Isn't that fun? If you don't get what I mean, then lets put it this way, you replicate two more of your self. And then one of yourself would read algebra, then the other would read biology and then the other would read newspaper. Once you unreplicate yourself, meaning you undo the replication, then you would learn algebra, biology and newspaper in one. It is like dual tasking but the difference is you do it at the same time and place. :)
The bad thing about kagebunshin no jutsu is since what the shadows experience, you will also experience it so if the shadow becomes exhausted then once you unreplicate them you would also become exhausted n-fold, depending on how many shadows are exhausted. Same goes if your shadows got hurt. For instance, you replicate two shadows and you let them boxed each other, once you unreplicate them, then you would feel pain two-fold since two shadows got hurt. Kagebunshin no jutsu also drains a lot of your energy. The more shadows you replicate the more your energy will be drain. It is like dividing your energy with the number of shadow replicates you have.
I hope you already got the picture of a kagebunshin no jutsu. Now, why do I want it? Have you ever heard of a thing such as opportunity loss? Opportunity loss is the best alternative being forgone. Opportunities are lost due the fact that most things can not be done at the same time. You could do dual tasking like reading while listening to music. Or watchin TV while rewriting your note. But most of the things aren't that easy to do. You couldn't study at the same time hang out with friends. But if there's someone who could do that, good for him/her. I couldn't read at the same time sleep. :) Well, of course, no one could do that. That is why I want kagebunshin no jutsu because you could do things at the same time and place. Like what happen in my studies, there's this one time that we have three chapter exams in one day. I got confused on what to do since all were my major subjects. If I study one of them, chances are one subject would not be studied, and I won't be ready for the exam for tomorrow in that subject. If I could do kagebunshin no jutsu, I would replicate four shadows. Three shadows would study each of the subject. Then one would go to sleep so that I would feel recharged by tomorrow. Then I would read manga or watch anime. :)
That's the fun part if you could do kagebunshin no jutsu. There are just times that I wish I could do things at the same time. :) Well. what I did was I didn't study at all for my chapter exams because I don't know what to study. :)

The Wrong Wish

Do you know what is the most common thing people usually wish? It is that they wish they have a lot of money. Well, fair enough isn't it. Who ever would not wish that kind of thing anyway. A lot of us would wish about it. We would like to say that if only I had a lot of money, I could buy the things I want to buy or the things I need. If I had money, I could date a girl, travel around the world and buy some fansy stuffs. If I had more money, I could go into business or join the stock trading industry. If I had more money, I could enroll to a prestigious university. Everyone wishes to have lots of money and it is inherent in our nature as human beings.
This phenomena is apparent in some of the noon shows in the Philippines. We can see in Wowowee that people who join in their game show wish to have lots of money. Money that they could use for their own with their own reasons behind it. It is also present in Eat Bulaga. We see charismatic personalities who wish to give lots of money to these participants without any burden. They would just ask a very simple and common and general question, even a child who is grade one in the elementary could answer their questions. Some game shows give money by using your luck like the Whammy; and a little induction to be used during when the participant would decide whether to continue or not. Either of these game shows mentioned, the idea is they give money to people and it brings joy to them, the giver and the receiver.
This is quite troubling for some people like myself. I say this is the wrong wish. Why can't we wish that commodities, goods and services will become cheaper so that despite we have few money in our pockets, we could still buy the stuffs that we need and want. This wouldn't sound selfish compare to a wish of having lots of money. Essentially, I am saying that let the value of money increase. We know for a fact that cash like our coins and paper bills will remain the same. Their figure won't change. A hundred peso bill is still a hundred peso bill in the future. But what changes is the value of that one hundred peso bill. Today, a hundred peso is value only at around 40. That's why we have to give more cash when we buy stuffs. And it is so burdensome in our family. I mention family here because it is the basic social and economical status in a nation. We can apparently see the burden when we go down to the family level.
There are many factors that would increase or decrease the value of money. One of which is the policies of our government with regards to inflation and the other is the strategy that suppliers do. We know that the value of our money is everyone's concern. We all want to have a strong value of money so that we our money will have a strong purchasing power. But is it not everyone's task. This is not like global warming/climate change that it is both our concern and task. Environmentalists would say to throw our garbage properly or don't burn plastics. But when we talk about the value of money, yes it is our concern but as individual we can't do anything about it except to our government officials and the producers or suppliers of commodities, goods and services.
Inflation is one of the cause why money value changes. Usually it brings prices up and the purchasing power of money down. Do you know why inflation happens? It is because there are less supply of the all the commodities, goods and services than the demand of these commodities, goods and services. We know in economics that whenever quantity supplied is low and quantity demanded is high, prices increases. So, who are we to blame? Roughly our selves because perhaps we voted the wrong government officials during election. I am saying that, in order to combat inflation we need to have better policies. Some government officials make policies that aren't beneficial to the majority and when it happens, usually it is the consumers who are burden. And what if the consumer has no income? Well, we can't say that he'll die because there are charismatic people who are willing to do humanitarian act to help these people. But in essence, this kind of consumer will eventually die, not physical but socially because he will become attached to the philanthropist. We can blame also the supplier and well, it still boils down to the government for lack of policy impose to these suppliers. Some suppliers go for profiteering in such a way that they intentionally produce low supply in order to gain profits. This is bad again because as I told you, the burden part goes to the consumers. It is not our task to combat inflation but we are roughly the one to be blamed. So, from now on, let's start to be critical in voting our government officials.
There is also a social implication when we wished for lots of money. And that is we become more concern of having more money in order to push a program, dream, goal, etc. It becomes embedded in our heads that we can't work unless we have money instead of properly budgetting our resources. We don't become cost-conscious, instead we keep on spending. We can observe this in the national, regional, local and even school levels. In schools or universities, we see lots of contributions in order to be enrolled. We can see the breakdown of these contributions and we reluctantly pay for it. I appreciate that projects, programs and activities need money in order to become successful, meaning money fuels this things but what I am against about is wanting to have money in order to make successful. And that wanting to have more money to be successful is embedded already in our lives because of our wishful thinking of having lots of money. And I say, that is wrong. We don't need lots of money in order to succeed, instead we just need enough and a better policy and a well-budgetted, cost-conscious and cost-efficient projects, programs and activities.
So, last word, if someone asks you to treat him or her with a cheeseburger, give him or her this response, "yeah, i will when cheeseburger becomes cheaper."