I don't know 2.09

There are things in our life that we really don't know. Although we come across that word much often and we think that we know about it but in essence we really don't know. We don't know the meaning of such word. The implication of that thing. The purpose for it. And the actions to represent it. For my part, I don't know still why do we study. I have been to schools for approximately ten years already. Starting from nursery to secondary education. But still, studying is really out of the question. So, how did I really pass those exams and the like. Well, if cheating is one way. And the other one is lucking guessing.

For now, that I realized that there are two things that come acrossed my mind when I think about studying. The relevant question is how far would you study a thing. One side would say that you study things sufficiently or enough. And, on the other hand, you study all of the things that evolves on it.

On the first side, when you just studied enough for you to know. That would be challenging isn't it? You would expect surprises to come on your way. And by then that you knowledge reached its limit and you really don't know what the answer, that it the time you would think thoroughly. And try to analyze things. Try to see a pattern. And, eventually, if you are lucky you would get the right thing. And the wrong one if you are unlucky. The bad side is you are prone to mistakes for you are uncertain with some answers for your knowledge is just limited.

On the other hand, if you study all of it. Every paradigm. Every point of view. All of it. Then, although it is time consuming and hassle but the trade off of it is that you are confident already about what you learnt. You won't panick anymore. And you are somewhat overpower your enemy. The bad thing about this is that it isn't anymore exciting for you know already what will happen and thus it is boring on your part.

To give you a picture, imagine that there is a war going on. Who would you think would win. An army who studies everything about their enemy. Well, after all, the only successful war that took place is the one when the intelligence is so great isn't it?

I don't know 1.09

There are things in our life that we really don't know. Although we come across that word much often and we think that we know about it but in essence we really don't know. We don't know the meaning of such word. The implication of that thing. The purpose for it. And the actions to represent it. For my part, I don't know still what sacrifice is. I don't know its purpose and reason for doing it. And, most of all, I don't usually do it. But, today, during the campaign slogan of a candidate for presidency for our country, I heard that, in their slogan, that there is fruit in every sacrifices. I actually don't know about it for I for one don't do sacrifices. And, last night, during a birthday party of a friend of mine. Two friends of mine told me to do some sacrifices on my life. They are sacrifices for me for one, the things they want me to do are not the things I usually do. And second, the things they want me to do are also the things that I really don't want to do.

First off, they want me to wear shoes everytime I would go out from our house. I usually wear slippers when I go out for school, downtown, and other places out from our house. I wear slippers at home as well as I wear slippers outside our home. They asked me to wear shoes instead of slippers when going out for it is untidy to see a guy wearing slippers.

Second, they asked me to trim my hair. Right now, I have a long hair for a typical guy. I really want to lengthen my hair. But, for them, for they are girls, find it untidy and not good looking for a guy to have long hair. So, I should trim it as soon as class starts.

Third, they want me to focus on my debating skills. They really want to see me talk sense in a conversation. It is because during gatherings like party, all I keep of talking about is Dota and frisbee and anime. That's it. So, if ever I go on with debate in our school, then they would preferably love it.

Lastly, they want me to focus on my studies. This is for sure the only thing that I really don't usually do. I hate it. But, since they asked me to do it. Then, I just give it a try.

All in all, they are trying to do some makeover over me. They want me to be an intellectuall hottie in school. :) And now that I realized about it. I would try those things they asked me to do.

anime experience 4.09

"Did you know that a sword's more powerful if you swing it with both hands instead of just one?" by Zaraki Kenpachi

This is true physically but how could you relate it in our trials in life wherein we are tested emotional, spiritually and mentally. For me, it is true. The hand of determination and the hand of interested should hold together the sword of dream. That is my philosophy of life this year as well a my new year's resolution. In short, I must be determined and interested with the things I entered in to.

What kind of power would it be if you would just hold your sword of dream with only the hand of determination? The power of your sword of dream is not that powerful. You are just wasting your resources and time. Remember, if you are not interested on something and yet you keep on doing it, you are just wasting your resources. That is because you don't have any direction on where you are going or a destination. Take for instance, you are a driver, and you don't know where you are going but you are determined to go somewhere so you ended up roaming around the city. You go to one place to the other. You go to this place and if you don't want it, you tranfer to another place. You keep on moving until eventually you run out of gasoline. So, in this part, you are just wasting up gasoline of your car for going somewhere you really don't know where you are going to.

The power of your sword of dream is not also powerful if only the hand of interested will hold it. You may be interested on something but you are not determined on it. It is like you want to be a valedictorian in your class but you are not determined to do it. You just want it, that's all. You would not do your best in your studies. In the end, you ended up just an ordinary student with a passing grade. You are not a valedictorian anymore. Your dream was not reached.

But, if you hold the sword of dream both with your hand of determination and interested, then that would be very powerful. You would really attained your dream. Using the previous example, if you really want to be a valedictorian then you must be determined to do so as well as interested with it. To answer the question, why would I be interested on this thing, you should know what would you gain in doing it. For instance, being a valedictorian would give opportunity for you to apply for scholarships in the college. Stuffs like those should be considered in order to motivate you and become interested. To answer the question, why would I be determined on this thing, you should know what would people think about me. For instance, being a valedictorian would mean that you are really smart and hardworking. You are an excellent kind of student. And if you want others to think like that to you, then go ahead and pursue that dream.

In life, in order to be successful, determination and interest should go hand in hand. Absence of one would make you successful still but you could achieve it for a long time that other might say you are unsuccessful already. Time should be considered in success too.

anime experience 3.09

"You should stay away from those you don't wish to lose" by C.C. in Code Geas

This statement is quite contradicting isn't it? If you don't want to lose someone, then you should stay away. But isn't staying away also in a way losing someone? I really wonder why C.C. said this to Lelouch. But, for my part, I do agree with C.C. and that is coming from my experience.

There's this lovely girl that I really like. From the moment we met each other, I got attracted to her and interested also. So, I hanged out with her. Asked her out. Talked to her. Conversed with her. I do everything just to get to know her. And then we clicked. We shared each others thoughts, dreams and some other stuffs. We stayed together for quite some time. We were classmates also at that time.

On the next semester, that is the time when we are not classmates anymore though we still see each other. We still do the things we did before but not that frequent. I really tried my best to get closer to her. I wanted to let our friendship be the same as before. I didn't not stay away from her. I am always at her side by then. Until, there's this time that we became mortal enemies. Our friendship was lost. We don't see each other already and if we do, we don't mind at all.

That thing is really regrettable. And every time I see her, I still do some wishful thinking that we could be friends as well as lovers in the long run. Unfortunately, that would be impossible for what we are now is lost forever.

anime experience 2.09

"Everyone dumps their pity on me. They don't know how much it hurts me. It's like stomping on an open wound." by Nnoitra


In our daily life, there are times that people would pity us. And it is normal to be pitied for it is an acceptance of inferiority or weakness on our part. But there are some people who don't want to be pitied for it is painful inside aside from accepting our weaknesses. There are also some people who don't give pity at all. They would just finish us in a way we could not move on. And I really don't know which is good. To be pitied or not to be pitied. To dump a pity on someone or not to give mercy at all.

But for my personal experience which I would like to share in my anime experience is that I would like to share the things that people dump their pity on me. I do agree with Nnoitra that it is really painful inside. It is like stomping on an open wound. It is an admittance of one's weakness. People with so much pride would feel it so painful. It is as if they could not bear it. I, for once, was pitied by a teacher. He let me pass my subject even though I don't really deserve. He even told me that I must do good in my studies the next time so that he would not regret what he did to me. Unfortunately, I didn't make his hopes up. I failed on the next subject. And, for sure, he is also feel sad about it. And regretted it.

I feel insulted at first when the teacher gave mercy on me. It is like they don't know what my capacities are. I once believed before that I am really a better student than my classmates. And, letting me pass that subject was just something I could not take. But, my beliefs were wrong. I was just too prideful that time. I really don't know my real capacities. I just assume I have one. And now, I come up with a realization that I am really a weak person. And I am so thankful that the teacher let me pass the subject. In that way, I would not realized it at all. And this would give me a chance to grow stronger.

Being pitied is not a bad thing at all as long as you humble yourself. But, being prideful, mercy is just a knife that stabs your heart for you cannot accept the weaknesses within you.

My Inspirational Message for Myself

When God is going to do something wonderful, He begins with difficulty.
If it is going to be something very wonderful, He begins with impossibility.
Always believe and never quit.

My Ring of Friends

Right now there are two ladies that are always on mind. We have been together for a month now. We click right away at the moment we met. And, honestly right now, I am addicted to them. I could not stand it if I couldn't talk to them or see them each day. That is why every time I have a free time , I would look for them. Fortunately, we do have a common free time that we could see each other almost every day. And even if we could be together for just few minutes, I would cherish that time that I have for them. I would also keep on communicating them through text messages. Greet them good morning everyday as long as I have load. I would do anything within my power to be always with them.

I am not a two-timer if that is what you think for I could see no attraction between the three of us. We are just good friends. And they are good friends of mine. There is no intimacy that involved in the three of us but I did confess my feeling to one of the two ladies but she rejected me for she just wants me to be a good friend of her. But after the confession, we turned out to be best of friends. And our bond with each other grew strong and livelier. And I am so glad about that.

Although, I could say that I am attracted to both of them for those two are beautiful in my eyes, but the attraction would remain as friend and nothing more. I am very cautious with my actions for I don't want to treat one greatly than the other one. I don't want to be partial but instead impartial and fair. I don't want them to feel that I neglect someone and give special treatment to the other one. That is not good for our friendship. I would also say that our friendship is still young and it still needs to be nurture and grow. But nevertheless, I am so grateful for these two ladies that have come into my life.

Thank you so much.

Comparison between Malaysia, Kenya and Nigeria in their Economic Development

Malaysia, Kenya and Nigeria are among the many countries that Great Britain had colonized. Malaysia gained its independence from Britain on 1957. Three years later, Nigeria gained its independence on 1960. Then another three years after, Kenya gained its independence on 1963. But based on their GNI per capita, Malaysia is the highest then Kenya and lastly Nigeria. So, we could not say that when one country gained its independence earlier than the other, that country is better than the other for it has already gained experience in handling government, economic and foreign affairs. We could deduce from what happened between Kenya and Nigeria. Kenya gained its independence later than Nigeria but Kenya is better than Nigeria.

One factor why Nigeria is less developed compared to the other two countries is that Nigeria has 250 ethnic groups. Malaysia has also ethnic groups but not as diverse as Nigeria. Malaysia is composed of 49% Malays; the largest ethnic group in their country, and the large Chinese minority and the rest of the population are some small ethnic groups. Mostly it is the Malays and the Chinese that manage the country in Malaysia. On the other hand, Kenya also has many ethnic groups but then again, not as many and diverse as Nigeria. In Nigeria, they have lots of major ethnic groups. Some major ethnic groups are in the northern part of Nigeria like Nupe, Tiv, and Kanuri. They have another major ethnic group in the southwest and predominantly it is Yoruba. Another one is Ibos, a predominant ethnic group in the southeast. With this many major ethnic groups, how would you expect a leader of the country runs the country? Cultures are diversified. There are many different beliefs, teaching, religions and so forth. Usually, whoever is the leader will have the tendency to uplift the hardship that his/her tribe have and at most time disregard the other tribes. With this, a country will hardly develop.

Another factor why Nigeria is less developed compared to the other two countries is that Nigeria relies on oil for more than 90% of its export earnings. Kenya and Malaysia do also have oil in their respective countries but they didn’t rely on it too much. Kenya, aside from oil, exported coffee beans, tea, and many more. But coffee and tea are their primary exports. In Malaysia, on the other hand, has rubber and tin primarily but they also have cacao, palm oil, timber and many more. And if we look at the GNI per capita of these countries with more export products, they are the ones who have developed more than the country that has few export products.

Another factor that I could site is the regional income disparity of a country. Nigeria, among all the countries in the world has the worst regional income disparity. For example is the Bendel and Kaduna has a regional income disparity of 5 is to1. With a low regional income disparity, it would mean that there is inequity in income distribution of a certain country. One tribe or ethnic group has a bigger chunk of income over the other tribe. And this is due to the fact that Nigeria has a rich diversity in ethnicity. And as pointed out in the previous paragraph, whoever is the leader of the country would most likely uplift the tribe he/she is now. He/she would put preference on his/her tribe than the other tribes which would, as a whole, make the country less progressive. This situation would tend to neglect the needs of the other tribes which in the long run become a detrimental effect to the country.

Dota Week

Last week, I was playing dota for the whole week. Starting from Monday until Saturday. The sad part is I keep on losing. I have a losing streak last week. It all started on Monday when friends of mine want to play dota. And then it went on the following days. And each day I have a burden to bear. That bruden is losing. A burden that is so displeasing. A burden that you want to keep on playing dota for by so doing, you might end up winning. Athough I may not be a sore loser. But I was just hoping to win just even once. For the past days as it came closer to Saturday, winning is not in my grasp. And then I ended up to be accustomed with it that losing is just nothing to be ashame of. Not a burden anymore. Just laugh at it and then it would just go away. But on Saturday night, when, at last, I won already. I got this feeling that I am so satisfied. A feeling of joy came into my life for this new year at last. A feeling that I have been longing for. And now that I have it, I would cherish it until it is gone. And then expect that it would come back again in some other time.

My weekly challenge 1.09

I have a challenge for myself this week. And it would be a No Dota until Saturday and No Gameboy until next week. I made this challenge to myself for I found out that I lack self-discipline. I could not control myself. So, in order to do so, I challenge myself. I lack focus as what usually my teachers would say. I lack priority as well. I lack also determination. And I know that the things I lack are the things that is important with my life. So, as a single step, I would challenge my self weekly. No material rewards will be given for that will just corrupt my mind. Instead, whenever I fulfill the challenge, I know deep inside my heart, I am satisfied already.

I am not also depriving myself for any fun to come into my life. It's just that I just want to focus and prioritize myself to school. And that is what a student should do isn't it? The No Dota until Saturday is made because by Saturday there will be a Dota challenge and I need to be there and play. And besides, it would also a way of relaxing myself. The No Gameboy until next week is made because during the past weeks, I became addicted with Pokemon Pearl that in a way neglect myself to study.

I really hope that I could fulfill this challenge that I made up for myself.

DOTA Challenge

I really hate to admit this but this is happening on my life right now during the start of a new year. And that is every time I met friends or acquaintances of mine, they would usually say "Dota Fons!" I even jokingly said to one of my friend that my name is not Dota Fons. Well, I really can't blame them for that for during the past year or so, I would usually challenge someone to play dota against me or with me. And, with constant doing this, my friends and acquaintances became hooked with this thing and starts calling me, Dota Fons.

Right now, there is an improvement to that name. I became an informal organizer of Dota challenge. I challenge a group of friends, a departmental dota challenge and even a year-level dota challenge. All I do is ask for a contact number of a specific guy who represents a group and contact him whenever there is a challenge. This is usually what's happening right now in my school. I got lots of friends and acquaintances because of this.

This coming Saturday, there will be a year level dota challenge. It would be third year accountancy majors versus second year accountancy majors. It would be a 5 players versus 5 players per team. Right now, everyone who will be part of the challenge is really preparing for the event. They keep on playing dota after their classes. They starts strategizing their tactics. Practicing on how to use a specific hero. Knowing on what items to buy for a specific hero. In short, the two teams are really excited at the same time nervous on the Saturday challenge.

I really don't know what is really happening with the second years specifically but all I know is that they are also preparing for it. On the other hand, the third years are really preparing for the event. They are like addicted to it. It is almost every day that they play dota. They are in a desperate mood. But, on my part, I am so worried to them. I am even concerned but I just don't want them to realize it. I don't even want to be a "Pontius Pilate" that washes his hands to put away guilt on his side. I would take responsibility whenever they are not performing well in their classes. That is why, at much as possible I keep myself updated with what is happening in their class outstanding. I want to know whether they are still performing well despite that they are playing dota. I want to instill in their minds that it is good to play and we should play hard but we should also study harder. Fun is good but education is better. Whenever I see that there is a decline in their performance, I would stop giving them challenges.

Even though I just influenced them to play dota and I didn't tell them to keep on playing, it would be cowardly enough not to take responsibility if ever they go astray. I promised myself that I would take full responsibility in their classes. I would not let them play more than study whenever their performance is declining.

SMB

I have friends right now who we called our group SMB. We are just three member of the group and every letter represents us. S stand for Soh. M stands for Maw. B stand Bi. That's why we called ourselves SMB. SMB is otherwise known as Super Mega Bongga-bongga. It is a cliche that I heard on the television. We like that other name than the popular initial for San Miguel Beer.

Our group just started last December 2008. Maw and I, Soh, were classmates in political science. Bi and Maw are kabsi; kababayan sillimanian. Kabsi means they came from the same hometown. They just went to our place to study in a universtiy which I am currently studying also. Bi and Maw are also dorm mates.

We had a great time last year and we plan that we would do that for another year. Our friendship is just one month old. There may be a lot of challenges that would come into our friendship and I hope we could stand still despite those challenges.

We also have a lot of plans for our friendship. Some are fulfilled and some are still plans to be fulfilled. One of the plans we still haven't done yet is a plan that we would have a customize key chain for each of us. This would represent bondness between us. Another one is we would go to a beach. This plan is planned recently. And I would only hope that there would still more to that.

I would give this toast of 2009 for our friendship. Right now, we haven't been together so much unlike last month. But nevertheless, we do see each other everyday.

anime experience 1.09

"What amazes me with the power of Buggy the Clown in One Piece?"

It would be very amazing if you are a devil fruit user. Devil fruit is a fruit that has a specific power or ability. If you happen to ate a devil fruit, then you would get the power or ability of the devil fruit. For instance the goma goma devil fruit that Luffy ate which made him a rubber man. But the trade off when you eat a devil fruit is that you would be unable to swim.

On the latest issue of One Piece manga, Buggy and Luffy became friends for they have a common goal. It would be fruitless if they would attack each other in that placee. It is during that time that I appreciated the power or ability of Buggy.

The amazing thing about the power or ability of Buggy the Clown is he could separate his body into multiple pieces and control them all individually; a splitman. The pieces can only move within a limited area as such his feet alone must always remain firmly on the ground.

It just reminds me of if you want to be great, you must humble yourself. Always place your feet firmly on the ground.

It also reminds of the multiple parts of that are separated may be your achievements in life but you must not forgot to know the source of all of it. God. And you must remain firmly on him.

My Mistake

On January 6, 2009, I met this friend of mine named Dino. I approached him and told him about the surprise video presentation of our friend named Ian. I told to be free on the weekends for it would be during that time that we would do the video. He replied positively to my request. He also told me that today is his birthday also. I didn't believe him for that. I thought that he is just joking for he perhaps also want a video presentation or what not. So I told him that in our barkada; a group of friends, only three of us is celebrating their birthdays on January and that would be Chris, Ian and Jotwa. No Dino. He didn't replied and so we went to our separate ways.

Later on that day, we met again and this time he said to me that he is serious that today is his birthday. I really don't believe him again. And I just said happy birthday to him because I am reluctant to do so. So that if we happens to meet again then he would stop telling me that today is his birthday.

During my last class in the afternoon, I met Ian. And I told Ian that I met Dino twice this day and he keeps on telling me that today is his birthday. I said to Ian that Dino won't just stop joking around. Unfortunately, Ian told me that today is really Dino's birthday. Dino is not joking but just want someone to know about it. I felt guilty at what I have done to Dino. I felt guilty too for not trusting my friend. This is a bad thing for a friend to be. So, I texted him in his cellphone and ask for forgiveness. Good thing Dino understands.

So, from now on, I would put it in my mind that in our barkada, four of us are celebrating their birthdays on January.

Parable of the Pregnant Lady

"There is this young beautiful lady who fell in love with two young good-looking gentlemen. The gentlemen are also in love with her. They like her because she is beautiful, sexy, intelligent and most of all, her ultimate sex appeal. It is as if if you look at her, you would become horny. The young lady also has this urge for sex if she saw a young gentleman especially if she fall in love with him.

The two gentlemen courted the young lady. One may be better than the other but only the girl would know that. Until finally, the girl has pick one over the other. She picked one of the two young gentlemen that she loves the most. On the day that she gave him her yes to the young gentleman, immediately after that, the young gentleman asks the young lady to have sex with her. Since the young lady has this urge to have sex especially to any young gentleman she encountered and loves, so they have sex.

After which the young lady got pregnant. She didn't want that to happen. All she ever wanted was to have fun and make love. But being pregnant was not her desire. So, she ask for a miracle. A miracle wherein she could go back to the time that she picked the young gentleman and would change her decision and would pick the other gentleman. Fortunately for her, she was granted a miracle. She turned back to the past where she would say yes. So, she said no to the gentleman that she said yes before and then yes to the one she said no.

On the day that she said yes to the other gentleman, the young gentleman then asks her to have sex with her. She allowed it and they have sex. After which the young lady still got pregnant. She was crying while asking for another miracle to happen but unfortunately this time, no miracle happen."

My dear friends, the only thing that could change this world is the willingness to alter our natural way of life. And do what we think we should do. It is the nature of the young lady to want sex for it is her urge to do so. Even if she is given the second chance, the same mistake still happened. If we are not willing to alter our natural way of life, then how are we going to change they way we wanted?

Personal Sayinh 1.09

"If you don't know what you want then you are just waiting you resources."


This statement is really true. In life, you must really know what you really want for if you don't then you are just wasting your resources. That's plain and simple thought isn't it? But I would want to give some examples to prove my point because some might argue that, so what if I don't know what I want, but that doesn't necessarily mean I am wasting my resources. Well, I am not also saying that this would be the case but in economics, that principle stands true.

Imagine that you are a college student already. You don't know what you really want when you grow up, so what you did is either you choose what is interesting for you or you let someone like you relatives or parents choose the course you would take. Either way, it would be a waste of time. Why would I say so? It is because you don't know what you want, so in that case you just select and select anything that suits you. You try this course, and if you don't like it, then you just shift to another course. And shift to another one if the new course won't suits you. Until for all you know, you are wasting your time choosing for a course to seriously take. You have bought books, paid the tuition, purchased notebooks and papers and ballpen. All these resources are wasted just because you keep on shifting from one course to the next.

Unless if you really know what you want so what happen is you have no setbacks anymore. You keep on going forward. The resources you have have beeb well maximized and utilized. And as we all know, resources are scarce so you can't really afford to waste it for nothing at all.